Just realized that… Gara2 dah lama ga latian bener2 T_T
Huhuhuhuhuhuhhu… sedih…
//balik latian lagi…

well… ini sebenernya cerita weekend kemaren sih. tapi ga sempet gw blahin di sini karena sibuk bangett (yeah rite…)

Hari jumat lalu nginep di rumah Em karena cowoqnya lagi seminar di Jerman. Karena dia bosen sendirian di rumah, gw nemenin nginep d. Kita dinner dulu bareng P di zap4 yg di city (ternyata mereka blom pernah ke situ). Dan di situ mereka cerita2 byk ttg temen2 kuliah mereka (Em dan P dulu temen kuliah bareng jg). Hahahahaha…. Lucu sih cerita2 mereka. Tentang gmn si P cukup terkenal dan disukai di kalangan wanita, yg paling lucu sih cerita gmn si Em berusaha ngejodohin salah satu temen kuliahnya ke temen kerja di kantor - dan gagal pada attempt pertama karena salah ngomong XD hahahhaha… Habis makan kita bertiga ke rumah Em, truss kita bongkar2 foto2 lama mereka pas kuliah. Truss cerita2nya berlanjut lagi. Pada nostalgia zaman kuliah gitu.. Hahahaha… It was quite interesting dan gw grateful sih dikasih kesempatan to get to know them better and to learn their past. Abis itu si P musti cabut pulang karena dah malem. Jadinya tinggal gw sama Em. It’s good to know that she’s just being herself. Karena some people, kalo ada tamu dateng, they will just be too polite (seperti keluarga gw contohnya ). Kita maen locoloco di PSP. Lucu banget gamenya dan addictive!! Hahahaaha.. Dah gitu time to go to sleep.

Sabtu bangun jam 8.30 pagi. Gw kira dah jam 9.30 - soalnya jam di ruang tamunya si Em susah banget bacanya.. distorted clock kayak gini . Setelah mandi, sarapan, main locoloco lagi, nonton gosip ga jelas di E channel, maen patapon, jam 11an si V dan Ea dateng. Truss kita maen mahjong!! Si Em punya meja mahjong dan setnya lengkap. That was the first time I ever played it. Diajarin deh.. Ternyata tricknya lo musti ngingetin setiap kartu yg udah keluar, dan siapa yg ngeluarin. susah banget buat gw yg ga suka hafalan… tapi interesting dan lumayan addictive sih. Gw pengin maen lagi jdnya karena masih penasaran (kalah mulu soalnya). Truss pergi lunch di Hansan dan abis itu maen bowling di deket situ. I still suck at bowling.. Score gw masih tetep sekitar 50an dan bola gw either lurus tapi lambat banget dan ga ada power ato kenceng tapi melenceng. Hahahahaha.. Jadi inget maen bowling heboh dulu pas di paradiso - foto2 ga jelas, ledekan2. I miss that moment a lot, but it doesn’t kill me anymore. Abis bowling pada bubar deeeh. Gw sama Em pergi belanja ke toko roti, toko buah dan supermarket. Truss dia nganterin gw balik ke rumah. Malemnya pergi ke house warmingnya S&S. Mereka ada rock band (on XBox) di rumah - 2 gitar, 1 drum, 1 mic. Gw bantuin bikin pizza bentar, truss ikutan maen jg. Kita dinner truss maen lagi XD Maen mulu weekend ini.. Dibagi 3 kelompok, ada yg maen Risk (versi Starwars - hadiah house warming dari L&P), ada yg maen rock band, ada yg maen monopoli. Akhirnya gw ikut maen monopoli. And i ruled!! (for awhile..) Dari ber5 sampe tinggal ber2, gw sama Q (karena yg laen dah pada bangkrut semua XD ). Tapi akhirnya gw kalah gara2 si Q masuk jail mulu dan ga mampir di property gw -_- Hahahahaha… Sampe jam 12.30 malem baru cabut. Man… gw capek banget. Dah gitu besokannya ngeWL lagi.. Hahahahah… Parah….

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Sebenernya ini topik yg gw bawain di cellgroup minggu lalu sih. Personally it is something that God wants me to learn for the whole month because every time I do something, He always reminds me about this topic. Anyway, this thing came up after reading this book called One Month To Live (by Kerry and Chris Shook). Salah satu chapternya yg menurut gw cukup menohok bacanya (buat gw personally) itu ngebahas tentang integrity. Well, intinya mereka challenge kita untuk mengintrospeksi diri apakah kita jaim, bermuka dua dan mengesampingkan integritas kita.

We try to impress people. Performing to keep up an image and impress people requires tremendous energy and effort. It drains you of your true passion, diverts you from your God-given purpose and robs you of personal peace.

Crowds are impressed by image, but you can influence people only by taking off your mask, being real and admitting your faults and failures.

Integrity is the opposite of image. Integrity is when your private life matches your public image - when what you see is what you get. Integrity is who you are when no one is looking, when there’s no one around to impress.

When you lack integrity, you end up acting one way at church and another way at work and school, You act one way with your friends and another way at home with your family.

A true sign of maturity and strength of character is to be the same person no matter where we are or whom we are with. Integrity is wholeness, consistency through and through.

When you have integrity, it fills your life with peace, passion and purpose. You’re not always positioning, posturing, shifting, spinning, second-guessing who you should be in the various roles and settings of your life.

For me personally, God wants me to sincere, to be real, not to fake it for the sake of “looking good” infront of other people, or even to win God’s approval. Stop being a chameleon, stop wearing a mask, start being yourself. And when you do or say something, mean it. Be sincere.

And rather than trying to impress people, we should influence them. Influencing people goes a long way. It builds and shapes other people’s characters. Impressing people will leave zero impact on their lives. You can only influence people by being the real you.

Man, it’s been a long time since I blahed..
kalo ga dipake sia2 nih udah bayar domain dan hosting
anyway… hari ini gw bikin mapo tofu sendiri pake resepnya Em
maaaaan… it’s soooo good!! ternyata ga usah buang2 duit $8 buat beli saos yg di paketan. bisa buat sendiri dan lebih murah! caranya pake chinese fermented chili bean sauce, truss chinese bbq sauce, truss oyster sauce sama light soya sauce, dan of course main ingridientsnya tofu. truss daging cincangnya gw ganti sama jamur dalam rangka hidup sehat dan jd vegetarian (yeah rite…)
anyway, it’s soooooooooo niceeeee.. ga nyangka bisa enak jadinya!! lain kali gw bikin tutorialnya d.. kalo kamera canon sx200is gw dah nyampe

truss gw nyobain moroccan couscous pake lots of raisins. ternyata enak lho.. apalagi kalo makannya masih panas2 gituh.. yummmm… i didn’t realise it would that good. padahal dulu gw paling anti dan ga suka couscous dan olives.. entah kenapa sekarang gw jd suka. dan gw suka middle eastern food spt chawarma dan sish kebabs (nulisnya bener ga sih?).. yah begitulah…
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This is just a note to remind myself on how to do this in the future…
Like the title suggested, all I want to do is to generate key pairs (using BouncyCastle library) that can be used for encryption in PGP Desktop. This takes a while to figure out because one very crucial information is being hidden by BouncyCastle. I have to google for 2 days to dig out this info - this very important link that they decided not to put in their FAQ: http://www.bouncycastle.org/wiki/display/JA1/PGP+Questions

Apparently for later version of PGP Desktop, if you generate an RSA key without a subkey, you can only use it for signing, and not for encryption (read this).

So, we start off like usual…

// add provider
Security.addProvider(new BouncyCastleProvider());

// get keypair generator
//parameter 1: key type algorithm =  RSA, DSA
//parameter 2: provider = BC (BouncyCastle)
KeyPairGenerator  keyPairGen = KeyPairGenerator.getInstance("RSA", "BC");        \

// specify key size
// encryption key size: 1024-4096
keyPairGen.initialize(2048);

// generate key pair
KeyPair keyPair = keyPairGen.generateKeyPair();

Then comes the tricky bit where you have to generate hashed subpackets…

PGPSignatureSubpacketGenerator    hashedGen = new PGPSignatureSubpacketGenerator();

hashedGen.setKeyFlags(true, KeyFlags.ENCRYPT_STORAGE);
hashedGen.setPreferredCompressionAlgorithms(false,
    new int[] { CompressionAlgorithmTags.ZLIB,
                    CompressionAlgorithmTags.ZIP});

hashedGen.setPreferredHashAlgorithms(false,
    new int[] { HashAlgorithmTags.SHA256,
                    HashAlgorithmTags.SHA384,
                    HashAlgorithmTags.SHA512} );

hashedGen.setPreferredSymmetricAlgorithms(false,
    new int[] { SymmetricKeyAlgorithmTags.AES_256,
                    SymmetricKeyAlgorithmTags.AES_192,
                    SymmetricKeyAlgorithmTags.AES_128,
                    SymmetricKeyAlgorithmTags.CAST5,
                    SymmetricKeyAlgorithmTags.DES});

//add hashed subpacket to secret key
PGPSecretKey    secretKey = new PGPSecretKey(
	PGPSignature.DEFAULT_CERTIFICATION, 	//certificationLevel
	PublicKeyAlgorithmTags.RSA_GENERAL, 	//algorithm
	publicKey, 		//java.security.PublicKey
	privateKey, 	//java.security.PrivateKey
	new Date(), 	//time
	identity, 		//id
	SymmetricKeyAlgorithmTags.AES_256, 	//encAlgorithm: AES_128, AES_192, AES_256, BLOWFISH, CAST5, DES, IDEA, NULL, SAFER, TRIPLE_DES, TWOFISH
	passPhrase, 		//passPhrase
	hashedGen.generate(),	//hashedPcks 	PGPSignatureSubpacketVector
	null, 				//unhashedPcks	PGPSignatureSubpacketVector
	new SecureRandom(), 	//java.security.SecureRandom
	"BC");				//provider

This will produce key with selected Hash, Cipher and Compression in PGP Desktop :

From Work Screen Caps

歌手：GReeeeN
作詞：GReeeeN
作曲：GReeeeN

窓から 流れる景色変わらない
この街旅立
春風舞い散るサクラ
憧ればかり強くなってく

どれだけ 寂しくっても自分で
決めた道信じて
手紙の最後の行が
あいつらしくて笑える

誰かに嘘を つくような人に
なってくれるな 父の願いと
傷ついたって 笑い飛ばして
傷つけるより 全然いいね
(母の愛)

あの空　流れる雲思い出す
あの頃の僕は
人の痛みに気付かず
情けない弱さを隠していた

気付けば
いつも誰かに支えられ　
ここまで歩いた
だから今度は自分が
誰かを支えられるように

まっすぐ見上げ　よそみはするな
へたくそでいい 父の笑顔と
信じることは 簡単なこと
疑うよりも 気持ちが良いね
(母の涙)

さようなら…
また会える日まで不安と
期待を背負って
必ず夢を叶えて
笑顔で帰るために

本当の強さ
本当の自分(自由)
本当の愛と
本当の優しさ

分からないまま 進めないから
自分探すと 心に決めた

春風想い届けて涙を
優しく包んで
必ず夢を叶えて
笑顔で帰るために

さようなら…
叱られる事も少なく なって行くけれど
いつでも側にいるから
笑顔で帰れるから

どれだけ 寂しくっても僕らは
歩き続ける
必ず帰れるから

想いが風に舞う
あなたの誇りになる

さあ行こう
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My new toy..
And so is internet at home (setelah puasa ga ngenet di rumah selama 1 bulan)
And I am back my old habit that I’ve been trying fight off - staying away from TV, internet, and movies
I wanna be more productive in other stuff
Arrggggghhhh
Like cleaning my apartment
And doing all the laundry
And cooking healthy food
I was really good at doing what I was supposed to be doing
Until today -_-
Meh…

huaaaaaaaaaa….
akhirnya kelar jg ngehandle production issue hari ini
@_@ capek banget man…
berkat bantuan senior dan beberapa email ke mail administrator, akhirnya ketauan jg biang keroknya
gara2 mail relay di box yg ngehost app gw ga diconfigure properly
GRRRRRRRRRRR…
anyway.. temporary solutionnya gw musti copy and paste data 20 batches dan generate filenya dr dev environment gw..
capek man ngeliatin angka2 yg 17 digit dan banyak banget itu @_@
anyway, i know u don’t understand what I’m talking about here.. tapi gw lagi pengin ngeblaaaaaaaah aja..

that’s the excitement for the day, sodara2…
lagi bosen nih..
pengin pindah ke mana gitu..
tapi di sisi laen jg ga pengin..
kemaren tiba2 kepikiran.. how i miss meeting new people
not knowing them
not known by them
getting to know them
telling them my stories
all the excitement of being in a new place
tapi di sisi laen males jg sih pindah
karena musti ngepak2
dah gitu unpacking
dah gitu jdnya ga bisa nabung
karena musti beli tiket
cari tempat tinggal baru
furniture baru
sendiri lagi (sekarang jg sendiri sih..)
not knowing anyone
mulai lagi dari awal
job interview lagi (paling males)

maybe i just need a holiday…

One of these:

Panasonic Lumix DMC-TZ7 (ZS3) 10.1 megapix 12x optical zoom
Panasonic Lumix DMC-TZ15 9.1 megapix 10x optical zoom NZD 545.50
Canon PowerShot SX200 IS 12.1 megapix 12x optical zoom NZD 640.44

Wonder how much this would cost in Singapore…

//mo tereak dulu…
Waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
Squeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~~~~~~~~~~
Yeeeeeeeeaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
Whoaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa~~~~~~~

It’s feels so super duper awesome to have this overflowing joy right now~~~
I’m sooooooooooo excited~~~
Not because I won something
Not because I receive something
Not because I get something
But because my friend is getting married~~
//padahal ga ada hubungannya sama gw

I don’t know why….
I’m super happy for her
Super excited for her
I don’t know why…

I remember a couple of years ago, one of my new year’s resolution is “to be genuinely happy for others when they achieve something, and not to get jealous or envy them”. I think this is it. I have finally overcome it by the grace of God.

And what makes me even happier, more ecstatic, unbelievably XD is the story that she told me behind her short-and-just-started wedding preparation. With only less than 6 months to plan, they got a venue that is within their budget and a free ticket to their honeymoon destination. God took care of everything for them and gave them nothing but the best - and I’m so inspired by her story. It’s sooooooo awesooooomeeeee~~~ I love it when I got encouraged by seeing a living testimonial of God’s love in front of my eyes.

I’m soooooo excited with the things He is doing with my friend’s life.
I’m excited as well for the things He is going to do with my life.
I know it’s going to be nothing but awesome~~~

Let’s sing it: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3jdkfdClHOM
Joy unspeakable that won’t go away
And just enough strength to live for today
I never have to worry what tomorrow will bring
Cause my faith is on solid rock
I’m counting on God!!!

Awesoooomeeeeeeeee~~~~~~